seen it in my head, burning my heart

the below was written sometime in late January/early February and never published.

and then there was one.

it's been a long time since i've written, and there's so much to say but i can't say it all. i'll try to do it over a series of posts.

end of december/early january yielded very confused thoughts and feelings about his state of mind and my role in his life, however significant or insignificant it may be. with his reassurance, i feel much better, and his feelings about me and my feelings for him have become more clear over time. i'm still cautious though. always the pessimist, i'm afraid of my feelings for him.